Phases

Phases : A Ramble.

Teenage is a phase. Childhood is a phase. Some pretty. Some ugly. Enjoy where you are. Path that counts, the destination is just that. But no, I see my child slipping into my phase that I used to be. I see my mistakes that I made. My child will make my mistakes. Do I want that ?
But the mistakes that are seen clearly. The good things are not. Don't deny a phase, enjoy where you are. But deny the mistakes, how to then find. What good rests. Don't deny a phase. Find out who you are. Does the phase change ?
The phases in the phase. The phasing of the phase. The phase phasing. Does it make sense. The phases. The phase. Change. And changes. Changing. Mistakes. Doing. Find what is left, seeing what is seen, growing scared, growing thus scared.
I see my child making my mistakes. I find mistakes, so not to make. I show my child my mistakes, so not to make. The good shall we find on our own. 

Pansexual.

weer towards intellect ?

where is it coming from 

this attraction ?

am I just another
wandering traction ?

'cause I don't want to be. 

Feminist

trying to be
gender blind here. 

! God of the Wild Pan

persons believe

what they want to 

see what they want 

feel likewise 

don't see why in freedom
being sadness 

see why I'm gender blind ?

I could love you

today or tomorrow 

if I love you 

I will not know you
feel you today

and tomorrow.
fill up your forever ? 

Judging feminist choices.

A friend of mine wears her hair short, long in the front and short at the back. It would look pretty and feminine if she let it stay like that, but she keeps brushing the long strands behind her ears, and it looks like she cropped it short like a soldier. She wears checked shirts and pants and sports shoes, no earrings, bracelets, necklaces, skirts, no plunging necklines. She's often asked if she dresses like a guy on purpose. She's often called a tomboy. She vehemently denies it; hates even the suggestion. She thinks of herself as a complete woman. Wholely feminine.
And I've got to agree. It's her choice what to wear, what not to wear, even what to think, what not to think. It's her interpretation of femininity that counts. For me femininity is caring and sweet and kind and gentle. For her it may be strong and rooted, helpful and transient. It really does not matter.
Feminism is about doing what you want, when you want, however you want, irrespective of your gender. (Ageism is about doing it irrespective of your age. Similarly, you've got religion, race, creed, social position, financial position, jeez.)
We need to seriously get over ourselves. 

In The Trash.

At the book-launch of a moderately successful Indian writer, a fangirl+reader+aspiring writer asked a brilliant, strikingly original question. "Do you have any tips for aspiring writers?"
And of course, the author obligingly listed out some of the tips he thought would help. Surprisingly, he did not say, "Get smart. You know like in the Alia Bhatt video?"
One of these tips was, "Ensure nothing goes into the trash because of lack of planning."

What. I'm sitting there in the audience going, "Hey man. Okay. I have folders named "BadCan", "Trashcan", "WasteBin#Hate" in my computer, in my writing folder. You know I go in those folder, and I read my beloved trash, I sit in the trash can and I inhale the smell of my trash and I write more trash. I write trash fanfiction of trash fiction I've written. I sit there and I write more trash.  AND THIS PERFECT GUY, sitting up there on that podium, is telling me NOT to get anything go into THE TRASH? Babe, I write trash. I live trash. I love trash.